Running out of life.
I only have a lifetime and numerous things to observe and experience the bliss in this world.
I have always fascinated by the different things around me, I never let myself stick to the rules that my dad made, hobbies that my siblings had, faith my family follows. I always feel I have limitations in trying out new things, learning new subjects, practicing new culture and faith.
Every time I pause my life, I feel I have limitations in terms of language, culture, faith, gender, academics to explore this beautiful world. Whole my life so far, I made my conscious efforts big or small to overcome these limitations.
Like an usual Islam practicing family, I was sent to Madrasa to learn about Arabic/Urdu and Islam. May be I was 10 or 11 years old, the only reaction I gave to my mom when she asked me to learn Arabic/Urdu to understand Islam better was 'if god really want me to follow Islam why did he restricted his revelation with language? is he biased?' My mom fail to answer me, thanks to her that she failed to kill my inquisitiveness, from then I stopped going to madrasa being afraid may be I am on the wrong side and tried to erase the limitation I have in terms of faith.
I tried to understand Christianity, Hinduism none of the people I know understands what they actually practicing, I have no exposure to Budhism and other religions to read about, I read a lot of the info available in Telugu and English, I have limitation of language, I can't read Tamil, even today I feel I am missing out hell lot of info from that language.
I regret I have limitation of culture, that I have no exposure to understand about Dravidism, Shivaism, Sufism, Sikhism etc., there are lot of isms which I can not list, I have no exposure to them, I am missing a lot with these restrictions I have.
But,
People are happy to confine themselves to a religion, to a culture, to a language, to a part of country, to certain continents.
People are discussing and debating why what they follow is right with out being experiencing the other version and other part of the concepts. People are limiting themselves and making their life so small.
Do you really think our life is that worthless to construct the barriers among society and just breathe and excrete? There are so many limitations already, limiting me to enjoy the beauty of this one-life and we are creating new each day!? That not all, we are owning the limitations to the core and fight with other dumb-heads who also have owned their limitations.
Every day, I debate about these limitations- Do you really think that I am well versed about the both sides of a debate? Do you really think I would manage to have full knowledge about these things I am debating for and against? How fair it is on my part to just speak shit about the things which I am unaware of?
I must accept my limitations not own them and work on erasing them not to defend them with the little knowledge I have gained. I am running out of my life, I have many things to experience, I should erase the limitations I have in all aspects before I leave or at least die trying that.
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